my birth story

I am very grateful for my daughter being born but I did not get the birth plan I wanted. I hired a doula and did all these things to induce labor naturally. I had gestational hypertension and gestational diabetes. They induced me at 39&3. I went through the full doses of miso and only dilated to 1cm. After a 3rd cervical check in 35 hours of labor I had my water break so we couldn’t use the foley bulb. Tried to continue labor on my own with contractions ramping up but not with a regular pattern. They wanted to start pitocin. I said no. After several nights with no sleep or barely I was in so much pain that I concerned a c section over pitocin. I had my daughter after 3 days of failed induction methods. She is perfectly healthy and my c section OB said her OP position would have been really hard to push out because she was a bit OT as well that I made a good choice. I’m just so disappointed my natural methods didn’t work, my doula didn’t come unless I was in active labor, and now I have to recover from my c section. Also my baby has a tongue tie and my colostrum is coming out very slow. I love her so much and she brings me so much joy but I’m ready to go home from being in the hospital for nearly 6 days. I’m anxious and I’m still processing all that happened. Just wanted to share my birth story because hopefully it will help me process it more. I don’t wish labor contractions plus getting a c section that same day on anyone. I was literally contracting on the OR table while getting my spinal block. Wishing all the October mamas the best of luck ❤️