Feel like an absolute failure
I’ve been breast feeding for 6 weeks which although exhausting had been going well. My little one was also going down for naps in her bed sometimes long/sometimes short and sometimes liked to be held. My partner has gone back to work this week and works away and I have a 6 year old and a 2 year old so now need to do the school and nursery run and everything else round the house. For some reason my little one seems super clingy, she won’t let me put her down and wanting to cluster feed constantly. Obviously now solo parenting none of this seems realistic and I’m totally stressed out and failing. I’ve resorted to formula in the evenings as I can’t face it anymore by this point. I feel like I’m getting post natal depression as I just want to run away and hide. I feel like I’m failing my baby not being able to breastfeed and continue this journey but I can’t physically take it anymore. I’m happy to do some breastfeeds but I know my milk supply will soon dry up if I continue formula in the evenings. I don’t want to pump as I don’t want more work for myself when I’m already completely overwhelmed. I don’t know I have no other help I’m just so low
It’s so incredibly hard. My little girl is coming up to 6 weeks and has been cluster feeding for the past week. All night all day it feels never ending. I don’t have any other children so you are already a superhero in my eyes - literally you are doing amazingly. She is probably going through a growth spurt/leap but that doesn’t make it any easier. There is so much pressure to exclusively breast feed and/or pump when actually if it is not working and is overwhelming then it’s not good. No one is thriving when you aren’t and you are just as important as the rest of your family. I know it’s extremely hard but if you end up doing formula then that is okay and you aren’t failing anyone. Keep going, I know sunnier days will come soon x