Lonely in motherhood

I hate to admit it but after 20 months, I can’t deny it - I’m so lonely. I’m a (for the most part) happy SAHM. We’ve moved around quite a bit for my hubbys work and as a result I don’t have a group of friends close by, let alone a group of mum friends. I try to take my LB to classes but I find mums can be so clicky there, as much as I try to smile and engage. I’m neurodivergent which means I struggle to see a lot of these situations for what they are, and it puts an emphasis on my low self esteem. But I just feel so lonely. My hubby is great and very helpful and understanding, but he can’t understand what it is to be a mum, let alone a lonely one. I live away from my family and my mom died 7 years ago. I’ve tried to spark a couple of friendships up over this app, but I don’t know if you’ve found this but it can fizzle out quite quickly. I don’t know why I’m writing this. I guess I didn’t think about this part of it when I thought about being a mum because I honestly find this bit the hardest. Maybe I can let someone else know they’re not the only lonely one, or they can let me know I’m not 🤣 Happy Friday 🤣🍷✌🏼