Porn in Marriage

Hi ladies, My husband and I matched on Bumble on 5/30/23, had our first date on 6/2/23 and we both knew the moment that we met that we would get married. I had been praying for years that I would know the man I’m supposed to marry the moment I saw him. We went through premarital counseling and I talked about my past history with drug addiction (will have 5 years sober on 3/15/25) and he mentioned his past history with porn addiction. We both agreed that porn has no place in marriage and that it is the same as cheating. We got married on 12/4/23 and it was amazing! This brings us to yesterday…. yesterday at church, the sermon was about letting go of things that are holding you back so that you can move forward and have room in your life for what more God has to give you. My husband asked to step out and talk so we did. He told me that he watched porn back in April/May and said it was “only 2 or 3 times.” I am so hurt and my trust in him is broken. I’ve worked so hard for YEARS to build up my self-worth and self-esteem after having none due to the terrible relationships I chose to stay in, and I feel like it all just crumbled. I am a child of divorce and refuse to get divorced. We have an appointment scheduled with our premarital counselor for Thursday evening, but I don’t know how to make it through to Thursday. I love my husband so much and this doesn’t change that, but I don’t even want to look at him. He made the choice, more than once, to break our vows and violate my trust. I feel like I’ll never be able to trust him again and my heart is broken. My ring feels heavy on my hand because it’s a sign of our covenant and he broke it. I could really use some support and maybe advice on how to go about this. Thanks for reading if you made it this far 🫶🏻
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I know this won’t help, but I’m sorry you’re going through that. I wish I had words to offer honestly, I don’t know what I’d do in that situation. I would pray about it and just try to maybe explain how you feel and that you need a few days to yourself until Thursday. Maybe eat dinner together and go to bed together, but during the day..spend some time in a peaceful place in nature or the park..or even going for a drive to just think. I would feel the same way. Hugs and prayers my friend 🙏🏻💕

Hi Brittney! I’m so sorry that this has happened and that it is weighing on your heart. First I want to validate your feelings, it can be completely devastating to have your trust broken - especially from someone who has been so different from everyone in your past. I know it’s easy to look at this situation as the unfortunate cherry on top of many bad situations you’ve been through, however I encourage you to remember that every situation is unique to previous things that have happened to you. If you choose to see this as an individual situation rather than an item on the list of situations, it may make it less heavy. Additionally, the wrongs that have been done to you on that longer list, as well as this situation, are all a reflection of the shortcomings of others and not of you. I’m sure your husband loves you very much, and this issue is 100% because of things that have nothing to do with you. CONTINUED BELOW

I praise God that He convicted your husband’s heart to come forward and be honest with you. Although it hurts so much, now that the issue has been brought to light, you’re that much closer to breakthrough and overcoming than you were when you didn’t know. I do believe with God, you can overcome anything. It may be difficult, but it is definitely possible. It sounds like your husband wants to work through this, and is willing to seek counseling alongside you. Something that may help build trust in the meantime is the Covenant Eyes app, which monitors phone activity and will highlight if anything inappropriate is looked at. It is meant to be used for accountability. I will pray for your marriage and that your husband can be free of this challenge. It is Satan trying to meddle in your marriage by bringing in past temptations. God can redeem all things, He is bigger than our doubts and hurts. Much love friend!! ♥️

Hi there Brittney! I will pray for your marriage I completely agree with Courtney. The Lord brought a deep conviction and your husband brought it to light. As difficult as it may be, but with the strength and Love of Yahshua(Jesus) choose forgiveness. I believe that the Lord will bring your husband deliverance and your marriage will be extremely beautiful. You also need to go thru healing and that’s all going to be done in alone time with Yahweh. Just be honest with God, your hurt is valid.

Hi Brittney I just heard about Celebrate Recovery and it’s to help people with hurts, hang-ups and habits I wanted to share this with you their website will locate one close to you.

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