Feeling sad

I feel like I can’t share things with my husband anymore like i used to do. He’s hurt me, in a lot of ways in the past few years and it seems the funny carefree childish part of me that use to just want to share everything that I found helpful, or funny with him has died . sometimes I try and share the ones about parenting and I feel like he don’t find it funny or understand it or just don’t care . Sometimes I feel like I’m just a live in helper. And for those that will suggest counseling I’ve tried 4 years ago. He thinks he knows everything and will not listen to them or go for help about his personal mental health . And I can’t bring up how I feel often because, forget about it, he can’t even communicate . And I can’t leave because I have nothing. I stopped working when my child was born 5 years ago. But I didn’t go back because I have no one at all to help with my kid. And if I leave our kid with him he barely watches and instead of correcting bad behavior he lets it go and go then he will get mad and yell instead or dealing with it earlier. Maybe I can work 3 hrs a day while my kid is at school , but it’s the 3 hrs I clean and cook and get things ready for the next day. I also have to be on the school line for 1 hr before school ends , so I don’t have much time. ( I honestly wish I could work, but whenever I think of it , i realize that I don’t have anytime) And I feel even if I could Leaving will be selfish because my kid loves it here. But I’m a romantic and my relationship started off loving and romantic and light now it’s just sad and heavy. And I don’t think we can’t get back to what we was. So I’m basically just here trying my best to stay positive make my kids happy that’s one thing we both agree on is trying our best to make our kid happy . Anyone have any guidance in this situation they can share ? I will truly appreciate it.