😡 PARTNER VENTING 😡

My partner is doing my absolute fucking head in. This is just a big rant because if I don’t say it here, I’ll say it to him and start a huge fight and ruin the weekend. This man started his own business about 18 months ago and it’s gone through all the ups and downs a new business goes through in the first few years. Right now it’s in a down slump - money is tight and irregular, and he is totally consumed by his own challenges and his own VERY SENSITIVE FEELINGS about it. Our finances are completely separate and we split everything 50/50, but right now he owes me FIVE AND A HALF THOUSAND DOLLARS for all the rent, daycare, car payments and other costs I’ve covered for him while he’s been floundering about trying to make his business work - all while I’ve also been trying to save money to cover mat leave. We had a discussion about how this might not be the right time to be entrepreneurial, and maybe a full time job was a better idea while we have all this other stuff to juggle, and he agreed initially and then unilaterally decided that actually, no, he wanted to give it another go. Fuck. Fine. If you’re sure. Meanwhile, I am almost 37 weeks pregnant with our second baby and have been on mat leave for one week. Throughout my last pregnancy, his work was regular and normal so we were able to split the expenses as we prepared for the baby’s arrival. This time, I have paid for every single fucking thing, and now I’m on mat leave I am also doing every single fucking thing to get us ready. AT NO POINT has he offered to pay for anything, to help me with the infinite list of jobs that need doing, or even to start paying me back the money he owes me. All he does is go to work for barely 8 hours a day, go to the gym, and talk about his feelings. He has been so selfish and has really failed to step up this pregnancy and I am just looking at him like he is taking up space and eating too much food and wasting my energy. Like this would literally be easier and more fun if he wasn’t here. It would make no difference - I’d still be doing everything and paying for everything, but at least I’d have some peace and never feel the disappointment of hoping to be treated as a partner and being let down. UGH. MEN. WHATS THE POINT OF THEM?!?! Thank you for reading 😘