Depressed maybe idrk

I’m 25 weeks with twins and I love them and can’t wait to be their mommy but at the same time I just want to not be pregnant anymore I don’t feel like my body was meant to handle this I could hardly handle my singleton pregnancy that had growth restriction and now my twins are in the 98th percentile which should make me happy but all I can think about is how much bigger I’m going to get and I’m already huge and so uncomfortable to the point where I get angry I can’t bend down to pick stuff up off the floor so my house is a mess and I honestly don’t even care at this point which makes me feel like a horrible mom to my first baby because he doesn’t deserve that and my husband helps out but it doesn’t really feel like help because he constantly complains and says things like well I’m tired too I took care of him when I got home I don’t want to bathe him I’ll do it tomorrow and things like that after I’ve taken care of our baby cleaned to the best of my ability cooked dinner for him please him in the bedroom even though I feel disgusting and take care of our son get him ready for bed and get him to sleep and after all of that he asks why I have an attitude or why I’m crying but then I explain to him that I’m in pain and just don’t feel like me and like an alien and then he consoles me for a little bit and I’ll ask him to rub my feet and he does after I ask him like 5 times and will only do it for 30 seconds and I’m just frustrated and don’t want to do anything anymore I’m exhausted and always stuck in the house I have to beg or compromise to just go to the park or something that doesn’t cost money and he seems to always find a way to say we don’t have the money for it weather it’s gas or just anything but if he wants to do something or wants something I have to figure out how to get the money for it and I’m just fed up but too tired to fight about it and I just don’t want to end up holding a grudge on my babies because of it and I feel horrible because that’s not the man I fell in love with and I know I’m not the one he fell in love with and that we are going through a really difficult time because of everything in the world going on but I don’t want to have to keep reminding him it’s us against everything not us against each other and I don’t know what to do because I know we can get back to where we used to be and that it’ll just take time but at the same time it’s been like this for a year and I don’t know how much longer I can go because he doesn’t seem to put any effort at all in anymore unless he wants something when I constantly still put in effort even though my cup is empty