I’m sorry mama, I don’t have advice considering that you just got a raise, but I can relate to the feeling! I recently switched to night shift because of this and it’s been hard but I’m getting the hang of it now and I appreciate the extra time I get with my son
I tell myself I give him a better life by working. He gets to experience so much. I think about our summer, he got to go to Spain for 9 days, camped at the zoo, a week in the family caravan and so many little adventures in between. Yes I'd love to be with him everyday but then we would be stressed as we would be struggling by, worried about food and bills and not knowing how we can afford birthdays and Christmas. I tell myself this every time I struggle to leave him, it's still hard but I also find it easier by telling myself this.
I feel this!!