I don’t know what’s happening to me…
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They are 2 and 5 Yes I do, like sometimes I feel pretty but then I see a prettier girl and can’t help but compare myself and think I’m not enough for my husband and that he will eventually find someone better than me. The way I carried myself showed the confidence I had. But then I started to hear rumors of people close to me saying “ she thinks she’s all that and she’s not” or “ I want to be skinnier but not like your body” “She over dresses” and comments here and there. And this been has been going on for the last years ever since i had my first kid. I feel like I’m slowly letting myself go. I don’t try to make an effort to get ready because I feel like I will make other girls feel bad of themselves. The same girls that were talking about me
I think you just need to stay away from anyone that puts you down, and just be authentically yourself. Journal and see what parts you want to improve and slowly work on that. Do not project your insecurities onto him, maybe he is funny
You need to separate yourself from them. Their voices are seeping too deeply into your mind so you need to get them away from you. You don’t over dress. They under dress. They just need to step it up or feel comfortable in their choice of clothing. They wanna be skinnier but not like your body? Fuck them for not being skinnier and being jealous that you already are. They need to be comfortable in their own skin. Not be so jealous of yours they mask the compliment with hatred. They wish they could rock or afford your body and your outfits. Bitch you are all that. Whole mf shake with the bag of chips. They can either think the same of themselves, boss up to feel that way about themselves, or find ppl to hang with that don’t confidently think of themselves the way you do. They wanted your confidence but it was too hard to build it so they’ve attempted to damage yours. Don’t give them the satisfaction. Fuck them feeling bad. Look at how they make you feel now. Do they give a damn?
No, cause now they feel better and more equal. Unless you acted like some uppity bitch that treated them like gum on the sidewalk which I doubt bc if so why tf are they still your friend - then you have no reason to think any less of yourself but less of them and you need some new mf friends. No friends is better than fake friends.
They want the pieces of your life that they can’t have so they’re pushing you to subconsciously ruin it yourself. Tell your husband you just need more love and reassurance rn. And make sure you give yourself extra love and grace rn too. Don’t let them bring you down. If they won’t rise up with you then find people who will
How old are your littles? Do you feel that your esteem has shifted down and you look in the mirror different?