New to being a sahm/wfhm...

I have worked outside of the house with a crazy schedule the entire time my husband and I have been together and as long as we have had kids. At the beginning of summer, I started working from home but the job didn't really work out. I fell in love with being at home with my kiddos, and don't want to go back to work but things are tight. My husband and I had a conversation about a month and a half ago that he enjoyed me being home with the boys and could tell I was happier. We talked about me finding something that I could do part time when the kids are in school but I haven't really been able to find anything so I have been doing DoorDash. I feel so much guilt for not bringing in any or enough income. I have an interview on Tuesday for a receptionist job at a dentist office, so M-F 9-5 and close to home but my husband says he really doesn't want me to do it, but we really need the money... I feel like I don't know how to read him. One minute he tells me I need to "put some skin in the game" then says he doesn't want me to get a job... I feel so lost and torn right now, I don't even know where to begin