How would you feel

At the start of the year I really wasn’t sure if me and my husband would make it, he’d had only what I could describe as an emotional affair. He cut all ties with this female and we both agreed to try and make time for one another a little more and really make an effort to save our marriage. This year for me has been a real struggle working on rebuilding trust and falling back in love with him again. Something that for a few months I didn’t think I was capable of but seeing the effort he was making I’ve slowly fallen back in love with him again and the thought of us not being together absolutely breaks me. Today is our wedding anniversary and he’s forgot. His step mum sent us a card which we both opened together on Sunday and we spoke about doing something but money is a little tight so agreed we’d do something when we could afford it. We didn’t see each other this morning as I was up with our little one early to take him to nursey and by the time I got home he’d left for work… I sent him a message to say happy anniversary ❤️ and got a reply. Yes happy anniversary to you to 😘 I said you forgot didn’t you and he said do you really need to ask me that. He’s forgotten my birthday once too but has always made it up to me. I told him this year wasn’t the year for him to forget and he had no excuse because we got a card on Sunday and he could have ordered something online, he then replied with ‘Iv told you many times will never remember it so unfortunately you got to get over it.’ I would have been really happy with a ‘your right I’m sorry this years been tough and no I shouldn’t have forgotten but all I can say is sorry’ or even a little Facebook post but no he said ‘well there was no card for me either this morning’ So I sent him a picture of the delivery that’s come for him and he said well only because you remembered this morning, so I sent him conformation on my order from yesterday morning and then he said hmm okay, I’m sorry I forgot’ But now I can’t even bring myself to write the card to him, I think any other year I would have let this go but this year just feels completely different, I just want to feel loved and appreciated and the lack of care from him over this has made me feel a little rejected 😔