Lying

Please don't be sad. Will you try daily journaling? At least you are able to express how you feel.

@Priscilla Ayobami I’ve never been good at journaling.. I feel like it’s because when I was a kid I use to have a diary and I wrote about what would happen when my mom was gone and one day she read it and said I shouldn’t write down lies and it was pretty traumatic. I Haven’t kept a journal or diary since

Is there anyone you trust who you could confide in? It’s not being dramatic. It sounds like you need a friend to understand and process what you are going through.

Worst case, you can try finding a therapist? They are a good resource even if you just need someone to talk to

This is why I always suggest therapy. This is what a therapist is for. To bitch to, complain and cry to. They don’t judge and try to help you see why the situation might be what it is and how to find your way out of it.

The people that love you *absolutely do* need to know you are being mistreated! They want to help you. They want you and your children to be safe and feel loved, but you are not giving them the information they need to get involved. Sunlight is the best disinfectant. The more you share this burden, the lighter it will become. The shame will not control you anymore. The sooner you do it, the sooner this situation can be corrected. Don't suffer in silence. Tell one person today. You can do it. You are worthy of help. ❤️ Also, try listening to this week's Mel Robbins podcast about correcting mistakes and letting go of regret. See if it resonates for you. As humans, we all make mistakes, but we don't have to stick with a bad thing forever.