Feeling lonely? Read this…

I read to escape reality and to feel a sense of accomplishment. Being a mom, I should already feel accomplishment but I always strive to do above and beyond for my kids and it’s impossible so I never felt any satisfaction with being a mom. I don’t have much friends. They have their own shit to roll in you know? I tried to make small talk with my husbands friends and family but I received some toxic responses that made me just stop talking. My own mother have this need to treat me like I am a teenager still telling me what I should and shouldn’t do and when I tried to move on to another subject, she hangs up on me. My husband hides in his room all day to avoid his responsibilities as a father. I can’t help but laugh at how I landed myself into this predicament. Somehow I feel I am not alone in this joke of a life. If you read this far, leave a comment. Maybe you can enlighten me with an even healthier escape than reading.

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I'm sorry to hear about all these trying circumstances. You are doing great as a mom. You're resilient. Reading is a great escape. Have you thought of joining a book club? That maybe a cool way to build community. Before I got pregnant I was really into this group HIIT class and kickboxing. It was a great way for me to release the stress and tension in my body and seeing the same ppl it felt like a little community.

@Chan thanks for commenting. I joined book clubs in peanut and Facebook. I used to go to orange theory then I realized that it hurts my body so I stopped. It’s just a negative phase I am going through. I will get pass this. I really am a great mom. I just have to somehow believe it. Are you Chinese?

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Never doubt on how much of an amazing mom you are because you are a present mom! A trying mom! It might not feel enough for you but I can bet to your kids all you do means the world and more to them. On the other hand your husband and mom are just people you can’t control on their actions but stand firm on what you believe is right for you and your kids. I tried crocheting and even joined a group on Facebook where other people have shared on how to crotchet other stuff. Maybe try journaling too? I tried to do some journaling during my tough times too and wrote it in the sense to share with my daughter someday so she knows that her mom wasn’t perfect but she’s the reason why I get up and do it all over again. It helped to release some emotions when I felt like I had no one in the world :/

@Veronica thanks Veronica! You and I both are great moms! I feel a little bit better

Im so sorry for what you’re going through! If u want to just chat, reach out! I seriously mean it!

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