Extra emotional day
I'm just having such a horrible morning. I feel extra emotional right now. My 2 older kids stayed at their God parents house this weekend so they aren't here and I miss them. My foster dog that i have had for 7 months because nobody has had any interest in her might actually be leaving now and I'm feeling pretty sad about it. My own senior dog started having seizures a couple weeks ago so we are on a trial med to see if that stops them. My fiance has been home with me for the last few months after a work injury that he's still recovering from. He is driving me absolutely nuts because he doesn't help me with anything including the toddler or baby. Everything is stressing me put and I blow up on people all the time. My breastmilk supply has completely tanked and I'm barely getting anything these days which makes me upset because I just want to be able to breastfeed one of my babies. I have never had luck breastfeeding my other 3 and now I feel like I'm failing him now too. I just want to sit in bed and cry because I feel so terrible about myself and everything going on in my life.
You are NOT failing your baby! You are NOT failing any of your kids! It sounds like you've got a lot going on right now so it's understandable that you're feeling emotional, stressed, and quick to anger. đź«‚ I get it. I've been there. If you just want to vent, I hear you. Let it out. You are not alone. If you want some advice, let me know and I can add another comment with some. But I will say this, take some time to just snuggle with each of your kids and try to soak up some of those endorphins.