Feeling lost of joy

Hi everyone i gave birth to my baby when I was 19 and i’m currently 21 now. I’m not sure if it’s post partum but I feel like lately I have been having a strong feeling of FOMO. I just turned 21 last week and now I can legally drink but I cant help the feeling of jealousy from others that I cant go out anymore without having to worry about my child at home. I feel like I strongly miss hanging out late with friends at night and partying and just being able to do everything without having to worry about my child. It feels so selfish and I feel so full of guilt. I had this strong feeling before a year ago as well but I thought I had gotten over it knowing that I have a future with my new family. But I feel like as soon as I had my birthday I just dont really feel any joy anymore and it tears me apart that this is the age where I should have fun but I dont feel any joy in life anymore. I lost my friends during my pregnancy but I am just now reconnecting with them and it feels really guilty of me to say but I get the feeling of regretting getting pregnant in the first place because my life feels like it’s over now. I live with my MIL and I hate being here but i’m so weak and vulnerable I cant get myself out of this cycle that i’m in. I just feel like I had to come on here and vent a little bit, thank you for reading until the end

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I'm no professional so please seek help from your doctor but it definitely sounds like PPD to me. Also speak to your partner about your thoughts and feelings.

Babe don’t worry I’m 42 and got preggers at 41 and felt just like you and I revisit this little shadow once in awhile. Surrender to it and keep living and moving forward. You gave life to a gorgeous little blessing that is work and hard work. But definitely get a impartial voice involved like therapy a group even that way you can see and hear that your are not alone. You are 21 and trust you will Bounce back and be a MILF now and everything will slowly be a new and amazing norm for u. My advice try something new every week to subdue the FOMO at our getting so if bars were your thing go try a wine bar inside a botanical garden where you can take the baby, or try a day trip to a nice place where you can have a drink while strolling, or have a nice dinner where you dress up and your dress up the baby trust the small Things will light something up You Got This

@Gabby thank you mama I def am trying to bounce back as a MILF that made me smile lol, but thank you for the ideas I need to get out more with my family

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