So lonely

I don’t know why I’m posting this. I just feel like I need to say it somewhere. I’m just so lonely & over the last couple of weeks it’s been weighing heavy. I was so social in my 20’s. I left a toxic relationship when I was 26, met someone new and moved to his town where I’d also secured a new job. But it’s only 40 mins away from where I grew up where family and friends are. Things were tough to keep up socially, but I managed it. Since having baby last year, I just feel like I’ve got no one now. My husband is great but he’s got a stressful job & it’s tricky. I don’t have a great relationship with my parents for various reasons but we all just try & be civil for my sons sake. The messages, responses and any invites from friends have dwindled to a halt but I know they’re all still meeting up because I see the pics. I went to so many baby classes but never found any new friends there. I asked the girls in my ‘friendship group’ about organising a meet up during the summer but everyone’s either busy every weekend or just didn’t reply. It’s my birthday today & I’ve had a couple of messages from people I knew years ago, but nothing from people I considered close friends a year ago. A 4 word comment on Facebook from my dad but nothing from any other family. I work 4 days a week but I’m the only female there & whilst I have a laugh with them, we’re not ‘friends’ etc. I know these years with a young working family are always challenging. I wouldn’t swap being a mum or my life now for anything but I just wish had even 1 genuine friend to share my woes & wins with. I know I’m not the only 1 feeling like this - I’m not looking for sympathy or even any advice, I just feel like I needed to get it all out for other people to read/hear. If you made it this far, thank you 🙈 xx