Venting + sharing 🤍

I’ve been struggling with bleeding through my first trimester but my doctor is not worried at all because the baby has been showing to be extremely healthy. I had a scary bleed yesterday so my doctor had me come in today and previously I did have a hematoma but todays scan showed nothing so we are hoping that was just the end of the hematoma that caused this new bleeding .. anyhoo he did a full exam on top of the ultrasound and that looked good too. I miscarried in February (@10 weeks, genetic testing afterwards showed it was inevitable + a super rare incident) but all this bleeding has had me so nervous or reserved to sharing or getting excited about this baby because I did last time and did not expect a miscarriage. In spite of still having some spotting, I felt so connected and so excited and amazed by the ultrasound today. I did not think I’d see this much movement so soon and idk I’m still scared but I am feeling content finally which is also scary. 😭 I have been keeping everything to myself this pregnancy but I wanted to share this here. If anyone else has dealt with bleeding and a healthy baby please share if you’re comfortable. Also feel free to guess the sex lol I’m only 11 weeks 4days (baby is measuring 11/6) but I did my NIPT test last week and have my NT scan next week. 🫣