Maybe look into other options for those babies until you get better or until you can handle having kids
I’m so sorry. Please try to get some therapy
It could be post partum for sure. It can happen years after your kids are born so it’s never too late to talk to someone. You’re reaching out here and that’s good but please get some professional advice
It has to be hard to have to do it on your own. Do you have a doctor you can talk to so he can make the proper referrals? I think talking to someone can help. Those babies deserve it. It’s not their fault :/ everything is temporary…your current situation isn’t permanent.
Reach out to someone please! This could be postpartum especially from the lack of support!