I'm loosing myself

Honestly my pregnancy was good but my partner did so many messed up things, till this day hurts me more than anything. I love that man and we worked through things but I have a almost 6 month old and I feel so alone. I don't really have a good support system, I do talk to my hubby about things but he has ADHD so he's not one to really focus when I need it. I feel like I can't talk to anyone so I bottle it up ends up hurting more. This man hurt me so bad I still can't let it go and that's the root of the problem,his best friend was his family so his best friends sisters were like his family too so I decided let me give it a try and be cool with them well I did they completely ignored me like gave me the stank face then the older one decided to send her friend my hubby's way well this idiot decided we aren't gonna last so he followed her. down the line with was buying OF subscriptions ect well it hurt that I had to find out. He's lied so much even little things and it sucks that he's gotten that side out of me I never thought I'd see again. I'm sitting here to all of you asking for your help on what I should do I feel like I clean,cook,raise my baby and somehow I feel lonley like I don't have anyone to help me mentally when I need it. I suffer from MDD PTSD anxiety I don't really show it nowadays its more of like I'm numb idk I love my family I do and some say I'm stupid for staying but I wanna make it work especially cause my son deserves a family,but part of me wants advice as a new mom im loosing myself and I don't have anyone I can't lean on right now

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I’m same as you babe Join a community A church or something They will come thru when u need them They’re like family xx

I just went through something similar with my boyfriend. I wish I help tell you how to get over it while still being with him but girl I can’t figure it out either.. I might not be much help but if you just need some support my dms are always open!!❤️

@McKenzie thank you ans same to you I know it's hard

You deserve better and so does your son. He deserves a whole family and by whole I don’t be “whole” as in two parents in the same home and what not.. he needs a healthy environment he needs to see healthy relationships. He needs to see his mama happy and whole and healthy. Staying with someone for children is it just not the way to go.. I know from experience my parents did this and it would’ve been so much better if I had seen them happy and healthy apart from one another and I didn’t grow up in the toxicity that my sisters and I did. I know other people with the same situation as myself who would also tell you this. I am so sorry you’re going through this. I think feeling alone when you’re not actually alone it’s one of the worst feelings. And I having been betrayed. And just all the stuff you said, I know that you love him and I’m sorry, but I think you need to leave for you and for your son.

I’ve gone through a similar situation. Even though I still love my husband but hurt at the same time i knew I had to leave because I felt that was best for me and my girls. And yes it was hard but there’s so many resources out there you can get the help you need. You can inbox me if you want for support! 🙏🏽❤️

I’ve never been in your position but there are wonderful men out there that will add positivity and quality to you and your son’s life. You deserve better. I think that a good first step for you would be to find some support near you such as a church or mom group and then plan a way to leave with a support plan in place. It sounds like you need a fresh start and I’m sure your little one loves you so much. You should focus on a happy life for you so you can give your baby a happy mama. Find someone near you that could maybe talk through a plan for you and your little babe.

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