Mind is out of control.
My mind is Absolutey killing me at the moment.
It’s currently at the point where I almost have a panic attack over ringing the garage to book my car in. Or if I hear something that has happened my mind somehow gets to the point where it’s convinced me whatever happened is my fault, I’ve done it and im trying to convince myself it isn’t me by going over every single movement I done that day! Even if said thing happened over 400 miles away.
I could be driving and hit a pot hole and then my mind tells me oh you’ve hit something so I turn round to check.
I just feel like I can’t keep up with life it’s so very overwhelming. The thought of speaking to another human being just freaks me out unless it’s my close family, my partner or my kids I just shut down and it’s crippling me.
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Have you spoken to the health visitor or gp? This sounds like a lot to be handling on your own, what have your family said? What it sounds to me is happening if your brain is doing a lot if risk assessment and more than it needs to, try thanking it but letting it go, I know that's easier said than done, make sure that you acnolege the feelings are temporary and not permanent, you are worried in this moment not forever, remind yourself that you are safe and not alone. Speak to a professional, you got this mama
This is OCD, I have it and it is relentless! Especially after childbirth it can get worse. Contact your GP if you think medication might be a good option for you and also try to see a therapist who can help you tackle it. There are also natural supplements that should help take off some anxiety but discuss it all with GP! You’re very proactive to reach out and get help, I’ll be praying things get better for you soon xx