Discouraged as a mom
I'm a first-time mom and my baby is 7 months. I woke up today feeling sad. I went to cry in the bathroom because I was just feeling like I couldn't do this. I have always been the primary caretaker of my baby and I have been exclusively breastfeeding for 7 months but I still feel like a bad mom. When my baby was a few months younger, he wouldn't stop crying and I yelled and cursed. I only did that one time because I was so sleep deprived and my husband wasn't helping that much with the baby’s sleep schedule (had to call him out on that and now he helps more ). I worry about what if I can't provide for my baby without my husband and what if it's true that my baby would be better off without me. I have thoughts of leaving my baby with his dad because what if I'm just not meant to be a mom? What if my baby is better off without me raising him? My baby has everything he needs and is growing perfectly every day. We don't struggle for food or money because even though my man can be an aszhole he works hard to take care of us. I just feel think what if I made a mistake by having a child? What if I'm one of those ppl who shouldn't have had kids cause they are just not good enough? I love my baby more than anything in this world but I feel like I'm a disappointment to him. Just feel like giving up….
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Sorry that you’re going through all that you’re dealing with, have you considered getting a therapist? It sounds like you could be dealing with some post-partum mental health symptoms. I went through that myself. It’s not easy. You need alot of support.
Reading your post makes me want to give you the biggest hug imaginable 🥺 My LG is also 7 months and I really struggled in a similar way (and that's with a fully supportive husband who does so much in the way of housework even whilst working) and found myself getting frustrated at myself, and being a first time mum and feeling like I'm not enough. I was diagnosed with post-partum depression 2 months ago and have been taking medication (it takes the edge off but some days are still a struggle). It may be something to speak to your doctor about just in case? They also recommended TalkingTherapies, a group dedicated to this type of thing. Just know you are not alone in this and you are doing great x