I need positive thoughts.

I am currently 32 weeks pregnant and have not felt more alone than I do right now. Everything was going very well until I hit 29 weeks. The day of my birthday my mother this some pretty nasty stuff behind my whole family’s back and instead of apologizing or even taking accountability, she started blaming everyone and acting like she didn’t do anything. My mother and I have never had a good relationship, we always argued and honestly she has always disrespected me and my boundaries but because I always just wanted a good relationship with her and I needed her , I always forgave everything she did to me. This time though, she disrespected me to the point that I finally spoke back, long story short she told me I’m no longer her daughter and to be quite honest I’m okay with that but at the end of the day it still really hurts. She didn’t come to my baby shower and even stressed me out to the point that I had to go to the hospital at 30 weeks but all she said was that I wanted attention. I have been trying to really focus on my baby and me but this really hurts. I really wanted my mom by my side. That’s not all of it, my partner and I have been clashing almost everyday. He has honestly been someone I don’t recognize anymore and I have never felt so mentally checked out in the whole relationship(7yrs) I’m no completely sure if it’s the hormones or if it’s actually me just being done. The past weeks I have not been wanting to do anything intimate, I really feel ugly and not myself so it has been really hard for me to get in the mood. He gets mad at me because he thinks I’m not attracted to him and tells me he’s frustrated… he generally touches me a lot but I have constantly told him to stop because I don’t feel comfortable and he still doesn’t stop. I lost my job early on the pregnancy due to HG that didn’t go away until 20 weeks and have only been able to do side hustle but it’s not enough to pay for anything really so he has been the one paying for everything. Last week he told me that all the money we have is all his because he’s the one working and that honestly hurt so much. He also told me that he’s going to look somewhere since I’m not giving him any. He’s always reminding me of how unhappy he is but once we’re okay he tells me he was just mad and didn’t mean it. I am honestly so scared, I never wanted this for my baby. I just wanted something normal. I don’t really have friends that can help me. My family lives in a different country so I only have my mom here. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so alone and helpless. Been trying to get help from the government but I can’t. Have also been looking for a job but no one wants to hire me not even remote jobs. I feel so alone…