Leaving

I think I want to leave my husband but I don’t know what to do. For context, we’ve had multiple conversations about me leaving and returning to my mothers house which I do not want to do because he doesn’t want our children around her without him because of his own personal reasons. We have been together for almost a decade but things have transpired in our relationship that neither one or us can let go and I know he’ll make coparenting difficult as he’s said himself if I leave he no longer cares for me and I shouldn’t ask him for anything. I don’t have a job haven’t worked since before Covid, I have bad credit card I’m just not sure what I would do in regards to getting a divorce.