Parenting

my family looks at me crazy when i explain whats going on to my daughter and thanking her for being so patient. the looks are insane but i feel like my family never had that kind of love for their kids it makes me sad 🥲 shes 7m for reference

I love motherhood and being a mother, I love my daughter. When I announced I was pregnant it took my family by surprise because I never showed interest in becoming a mother. Ngl I was afraid of pregnancy and thought it wasn't for me. After meeting my man and becoming pregnant, I found the confidence and excitement of becoming a mother. It just felt right. My family is supportive of my joy being a mama and they love my daughter. Everyone and every family is different.

Some people love motherhood. They enjoy every minute of it being pregnant and all and that’s great but then you have people like me that heard how great it was and I thought I had my shit together enough to have a kid but my pregnancy was hard I was alone for most of it. My emotions went haywire I fell into a really deep depression that under normal circumstances I would have pulled myself out of but I couldn’t. I hated my pregnancy. I hated feeling pregnant. I thought that when he came out that I would feel back to normal and somewhat I have gotten back to normal but now I have someone depending on me and I feel like I can barley take care of myself let alone him but I somehow make it work. After I had my son my baby daddy and I had some complications with our relationship. He didn’t understand that I was going through post partum deeply and my emotions were all over the place. We still love eachother very much and are trying to work it out but from different states now as I moved

To be closer to my family. I guess you can say I resent both my son and my baby daddy for that situation that arised 3 weeks after I had my son and I’ve tried not to but I do. People say I don’t look at my son the same. My mom says you don’t have the bond I should have for mother and son. I really try I do. I love my son so much but I feel like because of my situation i am jaded and I just can’t shake the feeling for some reason. I honestly like my time to myself more. I let him do his own thing and hang out with him sometimes but I can tell he’s a lot happier at his grandparents house and feel like he would be better off somewhere else even in the beginning considered adopting him out to a family. I don’t want to feel this way but I do. Motherhood is hard for me and it’s hard to admit it because so many mothers are happy with there kids. I know I’m blessed a lot of people try to have kids and can’t at least I was lucky enough to have him.

A lot of people don't love motherhood, unfortunately. I love it, and I'm crazy about my daughter. It's hard as hell, but still. I don't know what people expect, if they think it's going to be easy or what

@Ash why didn’t you give him to a family to adopt? Babies/kids need love, care and attention and it doesn’t sound like he’s getting that from you. You brought him into this world so you owe him everything, not the other way around. Not being mean I’m just concerned and upset reading what you wrote about him.