I can’t control my mental health

If I ever told my friends this (because let’s be real, I have been there before too!!!) my friends would do anything and everything they could to show me support/help out!! Sounds like you need new friends! Absolutely fuck them. Real friends give a damn they don’t guilt trip you and write you off

First, I’m sorry you feel that way! I hope you know that those feeling are only temporary. Also, It is hard to hear someone say they want to off themselves. Because there’s not much that you can do to help, and it will make you create a distance between you and that person. Your friends also don’t know how it feels to want to be dead. I used to think it’s selfish too until I started going to row my own problems and I wanted to be dead but I’m happy that I’m alive. Please message me and we can talk. Everything will be okay, it’s not worth it. Plus your children will miss you

if you need to reach out or talk about anything then please message me!!. I rather you speak to me than feel like that. sending you lots of love and prayers💖♥️

Hope you’re doing okay, sounds like you’re having a really rough time just now. Well done for reaching out to your friends and being honest, that takes a lot. Sorry that they didn’t respond in a better way. ❤️❤️

Oh dear these friends do not sound very friendly at all xx

First off I want to start off by saying that I can sadly relate. Thank God depression and anxiety no longer rule my mind. I am not a religious person, but have found so much healing through true relationship with Christ. It did not start off that way & definitely did not happen overnight. I was actually an Atheist for the majority of my life. Actually experience an encounter during a near death experience due to a an ectopic pregnancy that almost went undiagnosed. Although I had that experience unbelief was still something I struggled with up until now. The ER ectopic surgery was back in Nov 2019. Once I was able to conceive again it was during a time when the grief I was experiencing was so immense that it caused me to go into autopilot. My bro passed just 3 months after my surgey. Soon as I snapped out of the numbness that was very comforting for me at the time I started to try self healing tactics. Learned about coping mechanisms such as meditation, breath work and sought out guidance through mediums.

I think the real question is what in your life is making you feel like removing yourself is the answer? Your mental health is more important than anyone at this moment. What would bring you back to mental clairity?

None of that helped. In fact my mental health got worse. The only benefit I recieved was learning how to breath because I would often subconsciously hold my breath in high anxiety situations. Point is at some point I started talking to God again. I also kept seeking. I have now truly found peace & joy beyond my own understanding. Not exactly happy, but Im content now. Not pushing my beliefs but am sharing testimony because there is power in that. Something to consider if it's not something you have already tried. Feel free to inbox me. You have purpose, you are loved & worthy. As for those friends. I too experienced that same thing. Turned out most of my friends were experiencing their own issues with mental health. One of my best friends depression wa so bad her organs started to shut down and she almost didn't make it. Sometimes we may take things personal, but I learned that my mental was possibly too much for even them to bare because of thier own issues.

There is nothing selfish about feeling like you want to go. Friends that make you feel bad when you are being vulnerable are not healthy. You should be able to open up without being ridiculed. Maybe talk to them about how they made you feel. Being here is better than not and everyday is a new day to start over. It's a beautiful life to live and it's worth living. Please use this resource if you find yourself in a crisis 988 it is the suicide prevention hotline.

First I am so sorry you are feeling that way, I’ve been there and it’s a very dark place. It is not selfish to feel that way and very brave of you to voice it. In the last year and a half I have lost 2 friends to suicide and yes I was angry with them but the hardest part was that knowing someone so loved could feel that way and if I would have known I would have done anything in my power to help them through it not distanced myself. If they are not there to help you through something as hard as this they may not want to be the people you want to be around anyway! Please reach out if you want to talk or just rant ❤️

I'm so sorry they reacted like that. I've been there, but I've never told anyone and can't imagine getting a reply like that. I'm going to go against the grain and say I would hesitate to cut people off at a time like this, especially without first trying to talk to them again and tell them how their reactions have made you feel. Personally, I have a really bad habit when I'm extremely depressed or anxious to misread or misremember situations, so there's always the possibility that is happening. There's also of course a possibility that they are being insensitive and rude, but I think it's worth another conversation with each of them. What you absolutely don't want in this situation is to isolate yourself from everyone you care about