Am I the only one?

Sometimes I feel like me and my partner shouldn’t have kept the baby when I first found out I was pregnant. A lot of factors go into it, but i feel even worse when I have these thoughts bc if something happened to baby I know I’d be devastated. Maybe it’s the hormones idk. I just want her to get here already & hold her so I know/see/feel what I’m doing all this for 😔