Growing up in two different households will be a lot less traumatic than having a "father" who is physically there but absent in every other sense. I say this as a girl who grew up with a dad who left my mum several times for other people, he was a shitty dad when he WAS at home and she let him back a fair few times before she finally stood her ground, respected her boundaries and realised what was best.
Children and babies are very sensitive to whats around they're environment and are aware of how you feel and everything a stressed depressed mom is not good for the child or for you so do whatever makes you happy you have already established the many reasons to leave .it has to be you that has to go back to that place where you were about to leave him all together you can and you will again just because you have kids it doesn't mean they are handcuffs don't give him the power to make you feel this way you are well deserving of everything that is good in life sometimes a happy family is mom and children You can not let this keep going on because its gonna affect how you are gonna be there for your kid your not at your 100 and your beautiful child needs you emotionally ok so you can provide the best care that you can give its time to dig out the root of the problem which is him hun you are an amazing mama and I know you will do whats best for you and your child 💕
Nothing is going to change with him. You have to change. This man is an alcoholic and priorities are all messed up, he has no plan for your family so you need to make moves to elevate your life without him. Your child doesn’t need that kind of example from the father.