REALLY GOING THROUGH IT

I’m really not the one to put my business out there but I really need someone to talk to so back in the end of February the beginning of march I stop dealing with my ex who we’ll call X I stop dealing with him because I found out he was living two different lives with me and another girl across town we’ll call her B we end up setting X up he came home B was sitting on the couch but after that I stop dealing with X completely blocked on everything locked changed the whole 9 B and I stayed cool for a lil while !WORST DECISION I COULD OF MADE! … keep up cuz it’s a lot…. mid march I started dealing with an old friend we’ll call him W we was going out having drinks hooking up having fun…. So April rolls around Im getting ready to go out of the country to Trinidad I was joking with my sister and saying damn I still haven’t got my period it would be crazy if I was pregnant my sister said I have a text u wanna take it I said yeah sure y not meanwhile B is on the phone test came back positive I hang up on B call W tell him never went on my trip BTW …. W comes to the house we talk that night a few weeks maybe a month goes by I’m on FB n i see B share a live of a girl who we’ll call K so I call B and I say where u know that girl from she goes who I go K she says oh that’s my cousin 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 K is Ws ex and I know this because wen we was catching up he was showing me old photos she was n a few…. So I say B I’m pregnant by W B is shocked B takes it upon herself to go to K n tell K all B and I went Thur with X n that the baby I’m pregnant with isn’t Ws baby it’s X baby a fake page of W was made on Facebook and it was messaging K till this day. Nobody knows who did it, but I have my suspicions But at that moment I blocked B left her alone 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 So W gets a wind of this and stops talking to me for a good month n a half I would say… the end of July rolls around W and I are picking up the pieces I think things are fine he has me thinking everything is fine of course we had our little arguments here and there my emotions are everywhere. It’s the first trimester. I’m really going through it, but I’m still thinking everything is fine. Fast forward about a month ago I unblock B I don’t say anything I just wait two days after i unblock her she text me oh your belly is getting so big. I just wanna rub it. I Don’t say anything. I just automatically send her my baby registry. Let her know anything that is purchased. It is greatly appreciated. She goes. Oh am I gonna be the godmother? 🤣😒 I don’t reply. I just let her know again. Anything that is purchased it’ll be greatly appreciated. She says ok… a week goes by and I say can I ask you a question B says yeah what’s up? I don’t reply. I wait about three days to reply in that three days she was sending me question marks saying What’s up what did u want to ask so I ask her why would you do what you did she don’t know what I’m talking about because she doesn’t know that. I know that she went to K and said whatever it is she told her to disrupt what me and W had going on. But ever since then W has been acting WERID only wants to deal with me wen he wants to but in the same breath has me thinking everything is STILL ALL GOOD he REALLY had me thinking all was good but I just found out from his mother that he really does not think that the baby is his. And now that he knows I know he feels this way he’s been treating me fcking HORRIBLE ,DISGUSTING and I can’t take it anymore I’m a drinker and it’s really getting hard for me not to pick up a bottle and face it’s so much more to this but this is already LOOOONG but pls I need a friend right now BAD and this is my baby boy