Still emotional on my birth
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Definitely contact birth reflections at your hospital. They’ll do a debrief which can be really helpful. I had a really crap time too and I struggle thinking about it
I feel this way a lot. We had a horrible birth experience. It was simultaneously the best and worst day of my life. We did a birth reflections which helped massively (just contact hospital) and you can self refer for perinatal talk therapy. I have yet to do the latter. Sending love mama 💕
It's totally normal, I go through the same emotions. But just think how worth it was. My baby was a month early she's almost 11 months now. I lost 1.5 litres of blood and my blood pressure after went through the roof, it was the best day of my life but wort experience but totally worth it. Times a healer.
If you are in England you can self refer through IAPT for post trauma counselling. https://www.england.nhs.uk/mental-health/adults/nhs-talking-therapies/
Feeling the same. I don’t think i will ever get over my horrible birth. Those birth reflections stand nowhere near in the position to change the way i feel about my experience because it has happened and mistakes were done. It sound terrible, i wish it was different, and i wish i can share anything positive, but i don’t want to lie to myself that i can ever be happy or at peace about it. It breaks me every-time i think of it.
We did the birth reflection thing as ours was quite traumatic, my partner had nightmares and some PTSD-like moments where he'd flash back and shut down... but honestly after the debrief it got a lot better. Just having someone listen to us and validate us, medically and as a person, it helped so much. Absolutely would recommend, definitely do it. Worst case u lose an hr of your time
I would suggest contacting the hospital for a birth debrief. Someone will go through your notes with you and explain why things happened and you can ask questions. That might help you to understand it better. You could also go to your GP and ask to be referred for talking therapy.