Therapy

I was abused as a child (CSA) and joined a waitlist for specialist therapy for this in 2021. They finally called me last week to say I’m at the top of the list. The sessions are face to face, but I now have a 5 month old baby that I’m EBF and they said I can’t bring the baby to sessions. Partner works full time from home and I’m on mat leave. When I bought it up with him and said I’m unsure if I should bother now he kind of agreed because it would be hard to leave baby with him for that time seeing as he’s working and can’t really watch her for a few hours and because she doesn’t take bottles. I do get that but I’m upset that he’s not pushing me to go and get help for this. He’s a great partner and dad and our relationship is wonderful, I told him about the abuse 2 years in and we’ve been together for 12 years now, and he’s supportive and caring, but he does have a kind of “the past is in the past” attitude to this and thinks the best thing to do is just keep pushing and not dwell on what happened to me. I’m not really sure what the point of the post is, I guess to see what others think, should I tell my partner I’m going to get the therapy or is he right that I should just move on? I’m 31 now and part of me does think I need to move on but I’m still very troubled by what happened and having a daughter now it’s sort of hashing things back up, I think it will be extra hard when she gets to the age I was when the abuse started. Thank you if you read my rambling thoughts up to here x