I’m done 😔

Tonight I have completely hit a wall and I rly need to let it out somewhere. I feel completely exhausted and done. I’m a single mum to a 1yr old. Where’s the damn village that is constantly talked about?? Bc I don’t see one. I literally feel like a numb robot at this point. All I’m ever told is ignore people, don’t let them get to you, you can’t feel like that bc your a mum, you need to think of you son, this isn’t fair on him, he feels what your feeling etc etc. What about how I’m feeling!? How exsausted i am how, how everything that’s happened this year has affected me, how on going issues still get me down and hurt me. How the stress of making ends meet and provide for my son all on my own. How when I need someone I have no one to call. How many times I have fought the urges to self harm, and cried myself to sleep, how many times I have had to bring myself out of panic attacks. How I just have to wipe my own tears and get back to it. How I see everyone else having this family support and friend support and I have no one. I am actually so physically and mentally exsausted and completely done. I’m at the point now if I didn’t have my son I wouldn’t be here rn. I am on meds but the first ones made me extremely unwell and we were stuck in bed for days. And the new ones arnt taking affect yet bc I still want to cut and feel something other than all my head pain 😭 there is no village, there is no one to call, there is no one on the other side of the phone. I will get my shit together I will get out of this I will be okay. I’m just sick and fucken tired of being put back in this hole and having to fight and climb back out again on my own. I havnt even had a hug in months. And my heart is heavy, my head is full and I’m just so so done.

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Hey.. I may not be able to help how you're feeling. But I can relate. I am always about if you need someone to talk too or even vent too. Have you contacting your GP about your feelings?x

@Christina I have spoken to the gp and they put me on settaline that made me rly unwell and I had a seizure so they changed it to something else and idk why but they havnt worked yet 😔

It is trial and error finding a medication that works for you. It is beyond frustrating and makes you feel completely deflated but you WILL get there❤️

I'm so sorry you're going through all this. For what it's worth what people have told you is not true. The child doesn't feel what you feel. There is a truth partially in pregnancy as the emotions convert to hormones which an unborn baby can feel. But for born babies... no, they can sense that something is not ok, sometimes. But they definitely do not feel exactly what you feel. It takes ages for them to develop empathy! And they do that by reading your expression. It's totally OK to cry in front of your child sometimes. As long as you don't let it out on them and you say mummy is crying because mummy is sad and kts ok to be sad sometimes. This helps them process emotions. It's putting so much pressure on you to guilt you into not even allowing yourself to feel your emotions. You are so strong. Sending you a big hug. I wish I could hug you in person. Message me if we are any close by!

Sending a virtual hug, sorry to hear what you’re going through it’s not easy and doing on your own you’re amazing! I can relate to the heavy head and reaching a certain point. Inbox is always open for a chat xx

Hi mamma, try to meet some mum at the library or your local activities for baby’s you are doing an amazing job but you need support! I’m here is you ever need to talk, I’m based in Windsor not sure how far are you but happy to met you x

Hey. Just thought I'd reach out and see how you were feeling today x

Sending hugs🥰🥰 what are you on? Sertraline made me sick so I got put on fluoxetine, they didn’t help till they uppers my dose age and now I feel like a new person. Deffo try get out to groups might help X

@Amy fluoxitine didn’t work, sertraline made me so ill I had a seizure so now they are trying me on catalapram and I just feel so depressed 😔 xx

@Christina hey thank you for reaching out and checking in on me I appreciate it…I’m still feeling super low tonight I feel like it’s going to be a long path 😔 x

I mean it when I said if you need someone to talk too that you can reach out to me. I know how horrible it can feel being alone in your own thoughts. I won't lie and say it won't be a long path to walk down, but every tiny step you take is one step closer to feeling you again❤️ if you can't take it day by day just take it minute by minute x

@Christina thank you.. I just feel horrible guilty dumping my stuff on people xx

Never feel guilty for reaching out to anyone! I know it's easier said than done but sometimes in our lives we need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk too.. even if it's talking about the weather x

Also a single mum to a 1 year old so I feel you. Message me whenever !! 💘

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