Having a hard time coping with my childhood trauma tonight

You got this keep your head up. Because you are strong youll overcome and defeat the wicked. Its not easy but life is beautiful because you are still here. Im facing a battle too and its hard waking up from nightmares fighting myself in my dreams but God has your back ten fold just keep believing even if its a mustard seed. U got me if u need to talk

@Collette I don’t think so. I try to put myself out there talking to people and ppl are mean call me little girls or masculine or random or weird..it’s like I’m not accepted .

@Collette if I had somewhere for my 16 yr old to go I’d see about trying the suicide capsule.

Maybe it's time to seek another therapist out or a different form of therapy. Depending on how long you've been with your therapist hopefully you've been able to learn tools and skills to work through and overcome the trauma on your own.

988 help line your never alone

@Collette that line sucks no thanks

What area are you from maybe i can send you other resources to help

@Collette never mind I will just start a pod se if someone will find me normal. I am former special ed student. I talk like a child or like I’m retatded cause of trauma in my childhood

I don’t get along with men .cant even have a lasting relationship or friendship with any

Same with females. Some females I can get along with as long as they are not to aggressive

I think you need to find people like you. Is there a support group you could join? I'm not at all saying you have an intellectual disability, but if trauma affects you in a similar way, maybe a group for people with an intellectual disability?

I went to a childhood trauma specialist. This was covered by the state surprisingly. I have things that trigger me under high stress. However, if I'm not stressed, I'm not triggered. What I did and the only thing I believe that helps. Is completely cutting everyone off. If they have no access , there is no way to harm you. This wasn't too hard for me because my mother and I have gone years without speaking and my father and I don't have any relationship. This may be harder for you, but this was the only thing that healed me and hasn't brought me back. The triggers will always be there ,but you have to not put yourself in that position.

I read your previous messages. I would attempt to heal first before you put yourself out there to anyone. Your going to get rejected. And there are evil people on the internet and it's not a safe place. Your going to get attacked and you need to build up that self confidence to not allow their nasty words to penetrate your soul. Believe it or not. There are people out there just like you wanting to be seen and wanting connection. You have something to offer people. You should just focus on healing first before putting yourself out there. Also one thing that helped me was doing a non profit and volunteer work. Start your own outreach to help people. It heals so much. Good luck and praying for strength and resilience.