Awkward friendships

Hello my name is Alyse. I am 34 years old. I have a ten year old son. I am married and bi sexual. I have an annoying amount of social anxiety. So much so that when I'm talking to people , even online...I'm just super awkward. I have two friends. True friends. I would like to make female friends that I can relate to. I am not a mom that likes to dress up. I'm mostly in jammies or scrubs. That's just my life. I enjoy coffee and great smoke sesh. That's the only way I can relax. I would like to be able to have friends over to my house, but again with the awkwardness. I freeze and forget to be a person. Lol. So if you can relate to my kinda crazy, let's chat.