I don't want anything else besides my baby

I lost my baby girl seven days ago. I can't believe it. My heart has shattered into pieces, and I'm lost & empty. I don't know how to go on. That day was the worst day of my life. I'm currently waiting on her remains to bring home. I was told it gets worse before it gets better. I blame myself and those close to me rn. I blame my body. I wonder if I wasn't worthy of her. I know there are stages of grief, and this is currently mine. I'm broken and tired. I'm trying to be strong for my other children. None of them are her, though. Feels like my heart was ripped out. My desires. I feel like everything I thought I wanted died with her also
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I'm am so sorry for your loss. I am not sure it ever gets better. Maybe you get better at living with the massive hole in your heart. I lost one of my twins in April and I am still frequently overwhelmed by grief. Sending much love. I'm so sorry you had to join this shitty club.

Baby loss is an awful type of grief, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this. Your grief may not get smaller over time but the world around you starts to get bigger again, and that will make it feel easier. Surround yourself with as much support as you can, and give yourself time to grieve. This isn’t your fault, as much as it may feel that way ❤️

@Emily Thank you. I am sorry for your loss as well.

@Jules Yes it is awful. The world seems bigger and I feel so small in it. Thank you for your kind words

I understand, it’s just unbearable :( thinking of you, and please message me if you need someone to chat to ❤️

So sorry, please feel free to message. Talking to other mums helped me through those early weeks ❤️‍🩹

Allow yourself the time and space to feel all of these feelings, it is all valid You are still a beautiful and capable mommy, not only to your other children but also to your baby girl She may not be with you in the physical realm but she is always with you in spirit and energy 💗

@Jules Thank you

@Lucy Thank you. I will try. It's currently hard for me to talk about it

@Kat Thank you for the kind words. It is a hard pill to swallow. Acceptance seems so far away.

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