Resentment towards my husband
When I was pregnant with my second, both me and my son came very close to death when born. Almost 2 years have passed and I am newly pregnant with our 3rd. I understand my husband just loves our babies and is trying to do the right thing… but I feel like I was pushed by him to do this. And I’m extremely anxious and afraid of having another. As a catholic I know it was the right decision but I’m just feeling angry and scared.
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And also I just want to go back to addressing how you felt pushed by him to do this. I don’t know the right time to have a convo about it or exactly how to do it. But it may be worth it to tell him how you’ll really need his emotional support, his patience, and his kindness as you go through this pregnancy because are struggling with many fears due to the last labor. That way, you invite him into those fears and then minimize room for you to just have resentment toward him. Because now you’re a team up against your anxiety. Instead of it being your desire vs his desire
That is very understandable! I’m sorry you’re going through that. I pray that God will give you peace and comfort throughout this pregnancy. And we pray and declare that this time will be different than the last. Even if there may already be indicators that you’re at risk of it being exactly the same, we speak in faith that the Lord has the final say! So may you feel peace throughout carrying your child and may your labor be different than anyone before. May this one be the rainbow after the storm so to speak. The last labor was a storm, but this one will be free of complications in the name of the father, son, and Holy Spirit. And through every thing that may or may not occur on that day you give birth, may God give you peace that surpasses all understanding.