Can’t take it anymore
I feel so close to having a mental breakdown. I stay strong for my family all the time, we’ve been through some really tough times and I just can’t do it anymore. My partner has terminal cancer, my 3 year old is beyond challenging and my 6 month old has a disability where I have to peg feed him. I never get a break, my family aren’t supportive. I have no one. My partner is also bi polar so I get constant crap from him. My toddler tests me all day long even when I give all I can. He hits me and winds me up on purpose. And trying to manage everything as well as my baby who was in NICU for the first 3/4 months of his life and now needs ongoing care day and night. I’m just so unmotivated in myself, I feel so down and sad. I keep snapping at my son and saying things and being angry with him which I regret after but in that moment I’m trying my best not to explode.
I’m thinking of contacting my gp to get some depression medication which I’ve always been against. But I really don’t know what other option there is for me 😪😔
I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time. Being a mom is already hard without any additional struggles. I would definitely recommend discussing medication with your doctor. I know several people who have told me that it saved them. I would also recommend therapy if it is something you can obtain. I found it really helped me. Are there any programs for parents around you that could come in and offer physical support? I am in Ontario Canada and they have a program called cradle link where volunteers will come once a week to help you with anything you need.